In my meditation this morning, my spirit guide showed me a beautiful golden yellow crystal. I heard the words yellow topaz and the suggestion to wear it on my body to bring healing to my solar plexus chakra.
The solar plexus, or manipura, is located just below the sternum a few inches above the navel, and its color is a golden yellow. Among many other characteristics, it is also the center of our self-confidence. When this energy center is out of balance and weak, we can feel disempowered and doubt ourselves, even in situations where we know what we're doing. We second guess our actions and speech, and play the situation over and over in our heads thinking we might have said or done something wrong.
I am aware that I have a weak spot in my manipura chakra because of the way I grew up. Although I continually strive to bring healing to my self-confidence and self-empowerment, it is still an ongoing process, as I move through the layers of the proverbial onion.
When I was growing up, my family moved twenty times before I was eighteen, and I attended ten different schools. Sometimes, I would have to switch schools in the middle of the school year, and it was tough for me to be the new kid in a new neighborhood, not knowing anybody. I was teased a lot as a child, especially in grades 4-6 because I was a little chubby then. So, I didn't have many friends, and I felt like I didn't belong.
I think that is a big reason why I often doubt myself, even to this day. Sometimes, I feel like people don't accept me the way I am, and that makes me feel uncomfortable. I do a lot of work in releasing that old stuck energy stemming from my childhood, and I boost my self-confidence, saying "I am enough". © Erika Marie Rose and Good Vibes, 2019