In my meditation, I first saw 2-dimensional squares that morphed into 3-dimensional cubes, and I heard the word 'Boxes'. I understand this message to mean that we are often asked to fit into a box so that people can identify and label us quickly.

From the time we are born, our family, community, and society as a whole has expectations of us and encourages us to fit into cookie cutter molds. I remember as a little girl, I was expected to be obedient, cute, and sweet. Later, in school, I was expected to get good grades, toe the line, and and still be sweet, despite going through puberty and trying to get in touch with my true identity. Expressing my individuality was discouraged in my family.

Our society rewards fitting in the box, i.e. being a good student in high school will get you into a good university. Tough luck if you goofed off in high school and didn't get the high grades. Then, you get to be a non-traditional student, like me, and go back to school 25 years later.

In my young years (as well as now!), I definitely didn't fit into any pre-formed box. My 'career' was basically messed up right from the start because I didn't have the grades to get into a university. So, I started at community college, but being the adventurer that I was, and still am, I left school after my freshman year to move to Europe and become a flight attendant with an international airline. After three years, I got married, had children, and was a stay-at-home mom for 15 years.

That basically 'messed things up' for me career-wise. When I tried to become a teacher many years later, even after getting a graduate degree, it was too late for me to get a full-time job. I had missed the boat because I hadn't started my career in education when I was in my twenties.

I have come to realize that my life needed to unfold the way it did in order for me to live the unconventional life I do now. This reminds me of a meme I once posted in my Good Vibes Facebook group: "Tired of trying to cram her sparkly star-shaped self into society's beige square holes, she chose to embrace her ridiculous awesomeness and shine like the freaking supernova she was meant to be." --Anonymous

© Erika Marie Rose and Good Vibes, 2019